JuSt Tired of Lovin’

Who wouldn’t get pissed.. I feel so used.. so betrayed.. and this time I can’t realty make things pass.. it pisses me, ung tipong your making everything right then he makes everything you do wrong. He tells me na he loves me but never shows it in his actions.. I’m tired of hearing.. And I’m actually tired of loving.. ito na talaga ang sukdulan ng patience ko.. at wala na talaga akong mgagawa.. bhla kna kung mcoconvince mo pko.. pero u better give your best shot! Kc,  I just lost my patience on you…

Ok! Long story, last Monday was Valentines Day!!J belated HaPee HeaRts DaY PeOple!! So eion, I promised na we’ll be going out.. uhmm.. eat else where and maybe exchange tweetums couples usually do.. **were not couples** I promised that we’ll be going out.. but that day, when he was already waiting.. I backed out.. coz’ I realized that I wouldn’t be ethical if I buy a gift for him the day I was supposed to give the gift.. tpos the day after valentines would be our ‘so called day’ so I decided to back out.. I haven’t prepared anything for him kc.. I’ve been very busy doing stuffs lately.. naubusan ako ng time.. so I backed out.. I know he felt disappointed.. pero I know he understood why I did that.. So, I went all by myself and when I was strolling finding the perfect gift.. I get entangled with an EX!!J couldn’t resist his offer and he lend me his hand to go with me in finding the perfect gift.. and I found one.. I bought him a ring.. I call it an engagement ring but it seems to be a goodbye ring for now.. The next day.. it was already our day.. 15!!JJJJJJJJJJJJJJJ I DID’NT GO TO SCHOOL.. I was sick!! So, we weren’t able to be together.. na disappoint ko nnmn cia.. well I was disappointed in a way pero mas disappointed ako ngayon..

I just realized na ‘HINDI KAMI!!’ we may have this so called understanding but were not together and I have no right to complain why he treats me in such a manner.. I somehow agreed to this kind of arrangement kaya I can’t blame anyone regarding what I feel.. I just feel tired and betrayed.. and somehow.. TIRED OF LUVIN’

Currently listening to BaBy Girl of Inner Voices

Here is the lyrics!!L

There r tymz wen i look
in ur eyez i c the luv dat we shared
i c the joy inside
but i didnt c the feelinz u hide n now
ur sayin goodbye coz ur feelin has died

and all i can think about is you
the way say u love me too.
and every time i close my i
c ur face,
my love can never b erased
and you can neva b replaced baby..

*Chorus*
Baby girl y dont u cum bk 2 me y dont u love me any more
baby girl you know i stil care for u noe that il love u forever more.

there r tymz wen i kiss u good nite
i c the love we shared
i c the joy inside
bt i didnt c what u tried to hide n now ur
sayin good-bye coz ur feeling has died...

and all i can think about it u
and the way u say u love me too..
and every tym i close my eyes i c ur face,
my love can neva b erased n u can
never be replaced, baby

GOMENASAI!!!

The lyrics is in text language.. just bear with it nlng.ü

CiaO!!

-=Che SigNing Off!!=-

 Yesterday was the most awaited Outbound trip.. THE MOUNT BANAHAW expedition..

 The day before the trip, I have already packed my things and checked if all gadgets have been placed inside my bag.. then I slept late.. Dad sorta got mad coz’ he’s medicine box is lost.. he told us to find the box or else none of us would be sleeping.. I did set the alarm clock at around 4am so that I could at least be ready and come on time.. our call time is 5 o’clock and I arrived around 4:58.. pheww!! It was cool that I wasn’t even late.. The bus took off exactly 5:45am and Janster hasn’t arrived yet.. everyone felt so sad.. We had a stop over at SLEX petron and janster followed.

 At around 9:30am we arrived at Dolores, Quezon having with us ideas and thoughts of the hiking that would occur.. I really felt excited. First we went to the biggest church ‘Cuidad mystica’ and observed what seems to be different from an ordinary church.. basically, it has different structure and it has this weird photo of rizal and he had apostles.. In there was also a map of the new Jerusalem as they say.. Banahaw is the new Jerusalem according to them.. After that we had a walk to the next destination the balanghay shaped church in there we were actually tricked by out tour guide.. In there were the monuments of mabini, bonifacio and rizal.. I thought people in there were rizalista’s but they weren’t.. they just idolized rizal because of the things he did.. but, they basically considered him as a prophet.. after those we then started our hike to the rockies of banahaw.. we are expected to climb 750ft above sea level.. sounds easy right.. but uhuh.. it was actually strenuous and it has horrible terrain.. we hiked all day and sweats were really covering me up.. I felt 20x double my training in varsity.. my clothes were soaking wet.. haha!!ü when we reached the main station were we should eat my classmates said that I was actually smoking.. ** smoke comes out my body..** I guess that’s the chemical reaction they were talking about.. we first climed the KALBARYO where in we hiked for a really long time.. the terrain was actually horrendous coz’ it was quite raining and the rocks were quite slippery.. When we reached the peak there was this huge cross.. we were able to see believers and they were praying in latin.. cool?? Then we went down and hiked to husgado cave.. in this cave it is said that people who enter this cave who would have scratches and cuts should repent for all his sins.. It was actually terrible.. only thin people gets to go inside.. I AM NOT THIN.. but I hesitated to go.. coz; I love adventures.. the cave was actually body size.. When you enter you have to do a vertical drop coz’ it’s really a drop.. then everything follows.. Because of my height and katabaan... I wasn’t able to pass thru one part of the cave.. I got stucked.. but I still managed to surpass it with all my might.. I did it because I know I really wanna do it.. and when I already saw light after the darkness of the cave.. I felt relieved.. it was spectacular.. ** I didn’t have any bruises** The husgado cave is believed to be holy… this is the place they say you get judged by god fro all the sins you had.. if you surpass this w/0 any bruises you get to have 7 years of happiness.. cool?!

After that cave adventure.. We went to the falls.. I mean the river.. We hiked once again and had almost 300 steps stairs.. it was way easy going down but it was extremely hard going up.. we swam.. the water was so cool and the water is crystal clear.. the falls were great.. it was surrounded by leaves, ferns and other plants.. It was so rocky. Then we get to go back to the bus soaking wet.. we just changed out clothes in the CR near the bus.. We bought our pasalubongs and IT WAS A GREAT BANAHAW EXPERIENCE.. I’ll come back!! Soon!!ü

 Uhmm. Today seems to be an ordinary SATURDAY.. Ralph went out early coz’ he had game.. Ruchan on the other hand had practice.. With Eng of course,, I mean rainiel her loveey doody.. haha!!ü DAD and I watched my brother’s game but unfortunately they lost.. MARK had a bad game same with SEAN and my ever dearest PAUL!!!ü I guess he had a back injury that’s why he didn’t play well.. but I wish his fast recovery coz’ I really love how he plays.. he’s oh so good.,ü uhh, oh so great rather,, my rother had a nice game.. it was OH so FINE game.. After that Djep and I played Volleyball and we watched the barangay contest thingy..  Then suddenly hart and he’s brother surprised us..  They Got the wrong destination so Djep, I and Ralph brought them to their real destination.. I wish Kuya JR and ate chummy’s band win the competition..ü What saddens me is that mayee one of my core mate didn’t even bother to say hi.. she was a snob! Today.. I really don’t know if that is because LOURD was with her.. her lovelife, er loveey doody, her so called ‘life’.. UrR! But I’ll just think of it that way.. She wants her full attention to him coz’ its her time to shine.. I MiSS Sub!!!ü I miss his Oh SO SmiLe!!J hehe!!ü

 Eion!! I love my 15!! –I’m oh So Contented having him’ *wink!!ü

 Ok I’m logging off!!

CiaO!!!

 AYAY CAPTAIN!!ü

CRAZY!!

 Everything that had happened this day seems to be fine.. First we had our annual.. uhmm.. the pictures that would be placed in the yearbook!!**exclusively for senior students.. haha! Everyone seems to be very busy putting their make ups and of course helping in some of my classmates make over.. I HAD A MAKE OVER!! Yeah!! Its cool.. coz’ I actually got free make ups and of course cool makeovers from my classmates.. they even had the initiative to make me have a make over.,. some placed make ups on me while others went gaga ironing my hair!! **gulps!! This is the first time I let someone ironed my hair!!** by the way I would like to thank doudai and tara for promising that they would be working my make over.. thanks for your initiative guys!! I really appreciated it.. thanks GWEN!! For being patient in applying those stuffs in my face.. thanks JAZELLE!! For lending your stuffs and helping out gwen in applying those stuffs.. thanks, MARISSE.. for helping out some how.. MADEL and TARA for ironing my hair.. somehow it made wonders!! **kddn!** and ofcourse SHAPA!! Who also ironed my hair but ACCIDENTALLY IRONED MY EAR TOO.. urr.. that’s the reason why I have this band aid.. hhe!ü to all those compliments I received I thank you ALL for having those stuffs.. that were really heart whelming..ü

Before the annual actually.. we basically had our MASS because today is ash Wednesday.. isn’t that cool.. we all get to have those black ashes in our foreheads.. I got one.. and I really find it cool.. its just that it easily faded of after a few minutes.. I did nothing but roam around the auditorium.. asking some students to shut up and listen to the mass.. over all it was a success.. ASH WEDNESDAY is also the beginning of the Lenten season.. Fasting and abstinence is required..

I can somehow feel my ears burning.. I can’t help but think of it.. anyways.. Father and I would be busy working on my projects.. he had already bought stuffs so I know I don’t have to worry.. the class presentation would be easy.. I just really have to review the principles and concepts on how we made it.. Urr!! I can’t help but think about Hya.. we promised to have the same project.. but my pride won’t just let me talk to her.. I’ve been already reaching out on her.. but she never responded back.. now, I promised not to communicate with her unless she reaches out first.. uRR!!

***LOVE LIFE ALARM!!**

I can’t help but think of him.. time is really fast approaching.. it has been 2 days since we last talked.. the problem was way simple.. “HE IGNORED ME AND RESISTED TO BE WITH ME, NEVERTHELESS HE CHOSE TO BE WITH ANOTHER” another he used to love!! Damn! Isn’t that nuts.. I actually pained when  he did that.. I’ve been the one reaching out since the very beginning and I’m actually sick and tired of it..Imagine, I am the one reaching out but he always resists.. He tends to take for granted everything that I have been doing for him.. I’ve been the one communicating.. but since my phone was lost there were no communications between us.. he never tried.. he never reached out.. Now that he has done this thing to me.. I just can’t let this pass.. I’m not the martyr type lover.. I KNOW I REALLY LOVE HIM.. I do.. but this time.. he has to reach out.. I don’t care whatever the end result is.. if it would be a goodbye result then so be it.. bxta.. I won’t be reaching out anymore.. I have done my share.. and so should he.. sabagay, why should I get angry eh, were in pseudo relationship.. **kmE na di Kme!!** Urr!! This really pains me coz’ I really love him so.. naasar ako pero I have to take all these consequences.. I’m letting him decide this time..  bxta.. icw nang bahala.. bxta ang alam ko lang.. MAHAL TALAGA KITA and I really MISS YOU..

Officially Missing You

[Verse One]
All I hear is raindrops
Falling on the rooftop
Oh baby tell me why'd you have to go
Cause this pain I feel
It wont go away
And today I'm officially missing you
I thought that from this heartache
I could escape
But I fronted long enough to know
There ain't no way
And today
I'm officially missing you

[Chorus]
Oh can't nobody do it like you
Said every little thing you do
Hey baby say it stays on my mind
And I, I'm officially

[Verse Two]
All I do is lay around
Two years full of tears
From looking at your face on the wall
Just a week ago you were my baby
Now I don't even know you at all
I don't know you at all
Well I wish that you would call me right now
So that I could get through to you somehow
But I guess it's safe to say baby safe to say
That I'm officially missing you

[Chorus]

[Bridge]
Well I thought I could just get over you baby
But I see that's something I just can't do
From the way you would hold me
To the sweet things you told me
I just can't find a way
To let go of you

[Chorus]

It official
You know that I'm missing you
Yeah yes
All I hear is raindrops
And I'm officially missing you

NASASAD aco.. kse alam ko wala ciang plano gawin!!!

Quiz in math- 27/29

Quiz in eco  - 14/20

Quiz in English- 30/30

UPCAT?? When the hell is the upcat results coming out!! Darn.. I’m bored..

its SUNDAY!! my brother's birthday!!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY BRO!!

i just have a few messages.. for my one and only one true love..

to my friends reading my posts..

ok that's all i have now.. luv yah guys!!ü

 love lots, che!!ü

i love u..

you know who you are.. thanx for being with me knina.. you just don't know how happy yuo made me.. take care..